I know it, I've been missing again. I promise I will do better, especially since I have nothing but time on my hands now. I've been going through so much these past two weeks that I could write a book lol.
One of the main reasons I decided to partake in this blog was for me to open up. This has always been something that I have wanted to do being that I am a very reserved person. I figure opening up to the world and myself, during one of the most life changing moments of my life, I would learn something about Saadai.
There have been a few "unfortunate" events that have happened in my 25 years of life. One thing that I can not deny is that, whenever something "unfortunate" happens, it is so easy for me to blame myself, to feel as if I deserve whatever is happening to me. This blog has actually taught me that I was wrong.
The past two weeks, I have been feeling as if I am going through a l I am no longer working and I am feeling as if I need to make some BIG career changes for the future of my family. If you would have asked me ten years ago, where I would see myself at 25; Pregnant-High Yes, Jobless-Hell No!
Due to a series of unfortunate events, I have been forced to really take a look at myself and my life thus far and I must say, even though I don't own my dance studio, not married, not driving my Range Rover and living in San Fran; I have so much more. I am so thankful for my life and the woman that I have become. My family is amazing! My friends, I do not know what I'd do without them. We are all so different, all in different places in our lives, but we are always there for each other. Abdul, no words can explain how blessed I am to have him. Going through this transition, he has been nothing but supportive, patient, and understanding. He is going to be the best father, I have no doubts about that at all. My sister, Shimah, yeah she is my rock, always motivating me through just as our Mom. And I can't forget about my Sophie. She is my best everything lol. She always know when something is wrong, and she is always on my side. And the best part is......she doesn't talk back lol. And last but not least, my princess Sarai. Every breath, decision, blink, second etc is for her. She motivates me so much to become a better woman to be the best mommy. Three more months to go and I can hold my baby, she has forever changed my life, and I am forever thankful and humble.
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